Lisababy
July 25th, 2008, 02:44 PM
Everyone needs to share their testimony. It's something we all have in common as children of God. Some people think that their testimony is not worthy of sharing as it may not be particularly exciting or that no one will be interested in it etc....
It doesn't matter!!!! Your testimony is interesting because it is a love story between you and God. It's a witness to the amazing grace we have in our Lord Jesus Christ. It is a story of how God reached down to earth and touched your soul to forgive you of your sins. With that being said, I would like to share my testimony with all of you. Some of it isn't pretty or particularly flattering to your view of me, but it is what it is and I'm proud to share it.
Growing up as a young child, we never went to church. it was just never something that we ever thought about. I knew about God and Jesus, but had no clue as to what knowing them really meant. When I was 13 years old, i attempted suicide. I swallowed an entire bottle of anti-depressents. I wanted to die. The devil had ahold of me like never before and wanted to make me destroy myself. I was severely depressed. well i did it, i gave in and took the bottle of pills. 2 heart failures, surgery, and 2 weeks of being in a coma later, i woke up. The Lord had saved my mortal life and at the time, i had no clue why, nor did i even consider that it was the Lord who had saved me.
Fast forward to 7 years later. I had become a drug user. Addicted to marijuana, cocaine, drinking and just about anything i could get a hold of. I used to tell people that asked me if i knew God, "Me and God have an understanding, I don't ask Him for nothing and He stays out of my business." It breaks my heart to remember the way I used to think. I had a best friend at the time (let's call her Michelle) who would party with me, we would go out until all hours of the night and find ourselves in situations that were so dangerous, and we didn't even realize it at the time. Well, Michelle started attending church, and she tried to change her life around. I felt so abandoned by her. No longer were we hanging out anymore unless it was going to church.... i didn't understand why she wasn't happy to party with me anymore. She continued to invite me to church as much as possible. She was aware that my soul was in danger, but i couldn't see it. 2002, I got pregnant with my son. I was not married and it made me start to think about the future. I started attending church regularly but never made a commitment. I was still dabbling in drugs. I thought i could go on like that forever, it still didn't occur to me that i was walking a very perilous line. When Sonny was 9 months old, I found out that i was pregnant again. Here comes Lexi.
Well the relationship i had with their father went south very quickly after our children came into the picture. There was physical, mental and emotional abuse going on in our house and i had to get out of that situation quickly. I gathered all my things, my children and what was left of my dignity and self-esteem and left. Easter 2005, i was attending the church i had been going to on and off for several months. Michelle was a member here also. The pastor asked to speak with me and Michelle privately. He then proceeded to ask me if I was saved? I didn't know if I was or not and had recently been seriously looking at my life and faith and felt lost. Well, after a lengthy conversation on Jesus, i received Him as my Lord and Saviour. The best part was, my best friend and i had come full circle, together. Two weeks later at my baptism, Michelle got up to say a few words and she told this story.
When Michelle was first saved, her pastor asked her to make a list of 3 people that she thought she would NEVER see saved. She was then advised to pray for those people everyday for their salvation. I was number one on that list. For 4 years straight, Michelle prayed for my salvation, she never gave up on me because she knew that Jesus never gave up on her, nor would he ever give up on me.
I am so grateful to have a friend like her in my life, she can never be replaced in my eyes.
But what is so much more important is that from this story, you can see the Lord working on me before i even truly knew who He was and is. His amazing grace is beautiful, wonderful and truly amazing. I am a sinner who falls short of the glory of God everyday, but through the blood of His Son, Jesus Christ, I am saved. Praise God!
It doesn't matter!!!! Your testimony is interesting because it is a love story between you and God. It's a witness to the amazing grace we have in our Lord Jesus Christ. It is a story of how God reached down to earth and touched your soul to forgive you of your sins. With that being said, I would like to share my testimony with all of you. Some of it isn't pretty or particularly flattering to your view of me, but it is what it is and I'm proud to share it.
Growing up as a young child, we never went to church. it was just never something that we ever thought about. I knew about God and Jesus, but had no clue as to what knowing them really meant. When I was 13 years old, i attempted suicide. I swallowed an entire bottle of anti-depressents. I wanted to die. The devil had ahold of me like never before and wanted to make me destroy myself. I was severely depressed. well i did it, i gave in and took the bottle of pills. 2 heart failures, surgery, and 2 weeks of being in a coma later, i woke up. The Lord had saved my mortal life and at the time, i had no clue why, nor did i even consider that it was the Lord who had saved me.
Fast forward to 7 years later. I had become a drug user. Addicted to marijuana, cocaine, drinking and just about anything i could get a hold of. I used to tell people that asked me if i knew God, "Me and God have an understanding, I don't ask Him for nothing and He stays out of my business." It breaks my heart to remember the way I used to think. I had a best friend at the time (let's call her Michelle) who would party with me, we would go out until all hours of the night and find ourselves in situations that were so dangerous, and we didn't even realize it at the time. Well, Michelle started attending church, and she tried to change her life around. I felt so abandoned by her. No longer were we hanging out anymore unless it was going to church.... i didn't understand why she wasn't happy to party with me anymore. She continued to invite me to church as much as possible. She was aware that my soul was in danger, but i couldn't see it. 2002, I got pregnant with my son. I was not married and it made me start to think about the future. I started attending church regularly but never made a commitment. I was still dabbling in drugs. I thought i could go on like that forever, it still didn't occur to me that i was walking a very perilous line. When Sonny was 9 months old, I found out that i was pregnant again. Here comes Lexi.
Well the relationship i had with their father went south very quickly after our children came into the picture. There was physical, mental and emotional abuse going on in our house and i had to get out of that situation quickly. I gathered all my things, my children and what was left of my dignity and self-esteem and left. Easter 2005, i was attending the church i had been going to on and off for several months. Michelle was a member here also. The pastor asked to speak with me and Michelle privately. He then proceeded to ask me if I was saved? I didn't know if I was or not and had recently been seriously looking at my life and faith and felt lost. Well, after a lengthy conversation on Jesus, i received Him as my Lord and Saviour. The best part was, my best friend and i had come full circle, together. Two weeks later at my baptism, Michelle got up to say a few words and she told this story.
When Michelle was first saved, her pastor asked her to make a list of 3 people that she thought she would NEVER see saved. She was then advised to pray for those people everyday for their salvation. I was number one on that list. For 4 years straight, Michelle prayed for my salvation, she never gave up on me because she knew that Jesus never gave up on her, nor would he ever give up on me.
I am so grateful to have a friend like her in my life, she can never be replaced in my eyes.
But what is so much more important is that from this story, you can see the Lord working on me before i even truly knew who He was and is. His amazing grace is beautiful, wonderful and truly amazing. I am a sinner who falls short of the glory of God everyday, but through the blood of His Son, Jesus Christ, I am saved. Praise God!