why me?

[SylvieDee]

I don't want to make light of this. But really, why me?

I'm not special...(well, actually I think I am in His eyes), but ...it blows my mind. Why me??

Throughout my childhood, I've always "seen" things, and felt things different from others, and I've always felt that God was near, and other people didn't feel the way I did. I went to Catholic school and the nuns always went out of their way to pick on me and bully me because I didn't like the mass and all of its ceremony. It seemed like a circus act to me. They abused me physically and emotionally.

I have more to say but I think I'll save it for another time. It's too draining.

[USATeacher2005]

:hug

[walkbyfaith]

Possibly for the same reason He chose me:

1Co 1:18-31
For the word of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. For it is written, "I WILL DESTROY THE WISDOM OF THE WISE, AND THE CLEVERNESS OF THE CLEVER I WILL SET ASIDE." Where is the wise man? Where is the scribe? Where is the debater of this age? Has not God made foolish the wisdom of the world? For since in the wisdom of God the world through its wisdom did not come to know God, God was well-pleased through the foolishness of the message preached to save those who believe. For indeed Jews ask for signs and Greeks search for wisdom; but we preach Christ crucified, to Jews a stumbling block and to Gentiles foolishness, but to those who are the called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God. Because the foolishness of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men. For consider your calling, brethren, that there were not many wise according to the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble; but God has chosen the foolish things of the world to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to shame the things which are strong, and the base things of the world and the despised God has chosen, the things that are not, so that He may nullify the things that are, so that no man may boast before God. But by His doing you are in Christ Jesus, who became to us wisdom from God, and righteousness and sanctification, and redemption, so that, just as it is written, "LET HIM WHO BOASTS, BOAST IN THE LORD."

He knows and I know, because of how far He has brought me, and how much more He will grow and stretch me, that I cannot take any glory or credit for this journey of salvation and healing. It all belongs to the Lord.

And when He calls me to obedience in something that I am not capable of myself, not only will He receive the glory, but others will see that it was Him. That is my hope, for Him to grow me into the vessel He can use to draw others to the faith. :):

[ub4war]

possibly-------------------But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty; And base things of the world, and things which are despised, hath God chosen, yea, and things which are not, to bring to nought things that are: That no flesh should glory in his presence 1Cor 1:27-29

[Azariah]

When I was in the forth grade a nun attacked me because I didn’t know the answer to a math subtraction problem. While I was standing facing the blackboard she beat me with her fists on my back. A real inspiration to learn huh?

Anyway, while you are asking yourself why me, I am asking myself why not me. I can only wish I had the courage that you had at the time. You let your feelings known when I never shared mine. You were a brave little girl while I was a scared little boy.

[walkbyfaith]

When I was in the forth grade a nun attacked me because I didn’t know the answer to a math subtraction problem. While I was standing facing the blackboard she beat me with her fists on my back. A real inspiration to learn huh?

Anyway, while you are asking yourself why me, I am asking myself why not me. I can only wish I had the courage that you had at the time. You let your feelings known when I never shared mine. You were a brave little girl while I was a scared little boy.

I'm sorry this happened to you. :hug Don't be so hard on yourself, you were a child, and children are supposed to be nurtured and protected. :hug Only satan would have you feel bad over your reaction in that instance. He loves nothing more than to beat us down with our own self-disappointment. I know, I let him do it to me too many times in the past.

I've learned, as I turn my pain, humiliation, and anger over to the Lord, that He can use EVERYTHING that happened to me. He takes the garbage I hand Him and makes something beautiful out of it today. I continue to be amazed at how He can take the worst experiences I've had, and they ae many, and use them to heal me and glorify Himself. :hail

[Azariah]

I'm sorry this happened to you. :hug Don't be so hard on yourself, you were a child, and children are supposed to be nurtured and protected. :hug Only satan would have you feel bad over your reaction in that instance. He loves nothing more than to beat us down with our own self-disappointment. I know, I let him do it to me too many times in the past.

I've learned, as I turn my pain, humiliation, and anger over to the Lord, that He can use EVERYTHING that happened to me. He takes the garbage I hand Him and makes something beautiful out of it today. I continue to be amazed at how He can take the worst experiences I've had, and they ae many, and use them to heal me and glorify Himself. :hail

You are a blessing walkbyfaith. I’ve read your reply over and over. My eyes are at this moment watering with tears remembering that day. This is the first time I have ever talked about it to anyone. Your words are in my heart now. A part of me. My heart belongs to Jesus. Jesus and all the angels in heaven are I’m sure smiling upon you this day.

[Sower]

When I was in the forth grade a nun attacked me because I didn’t know the answer to a math subtraction problem. While I was standing facing the blackboard she beat me with her fists on my back. A real inspiration to learn huh?

Anyway, while you are asking yourself why me, I am asking myself why not me. I can only wish I had the courage that you had at the time. You let your feelings known when I never shared mine. You were a brave little girl while I was a scared little boy.

Im so sorry about that! There is no excuse for that kind of behavior, but you know, God is watching all of these things happen and there are penalties for such acts~ God loves children and Im so glad you stayed with the faith, and that U realize that God doesn't treat kids that way!~:wave

[Azariah]

Im so sorry about that! There is no excuse for that kind of behavior, but you know, God is watching all of these thing happen and there are penalties for such acts~ God loves children and Im so glad you stayed with the faith, and that U realize that God doesn't treat kids that way!~:wave

I'm so glad too! Thank-you for your very kind words.

[Sower]

I'm so glad too! Thank-you for your very kind words.
:kiss God bless U today and forever!:wave